Wednesday Whiteboard Quote - March 18

"I am astounded at how long it takes to discover... for the first time, the things I have learned... over and over again all my life." There is a Hole In My Sidewalk

Just as a bicep curl requires both the concentric (lifting) and eccentric (lowering) motion to grow muscles, learning is a product of both forgetting and remembering. It's just that in forgetting, we usually beat ourselves up.

"I've been working on this for weeks, and I still keep making the same error..."

"How many times is it going to take me messing this up to remember to do it correctly?!?!"

But beating ourselves up over forgetting is like only lifting the weight and never lowering it, all the while thinking we're inadequate because our muscles won't grow.

Forgetting is essential. Forgetting allows us the opportunity to remember, which rewires our mind and builds new neural pathways that eventually lead to learning. Eventually, this leads to a place of living the learning where we automatically remember.

Remember, forgetting is necessary for the process of learning.

Wednesday Whiteboard quote - March 11

"For one who has not examined the mind and has always identified completely with passing thoughts, the possibility of being able to rest in awareness free of thoughts may be a bit disconcerting. It's a little like the caterpillar pointing up to the butterfly and saying, "You'll never get me up into one of those things." -How Can I Help?

I’ve struggled in the past with speaking my mind. 

Sure, a bit of that tendency is due to the people-pleasing side of me that, from a young age, hasn’t liked to rock the boat (any more than it was already rocking), but a lot of it is because most of the thoughts just aren’t helpful. 

“Why are they standing right in front of the baggage claim when they see I clearly can’t get my bag? What’s wrong with them?” Proceeds to tell some random stranger to move and learn some manners. 

“My one weekend off this month, and it has to rain. Just my luck. It just isn’t fair.” Proceeds to tell everyone how drastically unfair it is and how we can never catch a break.

It ultimately comes down to whether we want to be right or free. If we want to be right, we are going to spend our days wasting our energy trying to get everyone to align with how we think every moment of the world should pan out. Good luck with that. 

Wanting to be right and then speaking our mind without thinking is like vomiting up the bile of our past that we haven’t been able to notice and work through. 

If we want to be free, free from the need to constantly try to make people and situations different from what they are, we must examine the mind and see the insanity of most of “our” thoughts.

It’s within our power to find the balance between speaking our mind through a response (a response means it’s not immediate, there must be space between the thought and our action) or vomiting all over ourselves and others with our past. 

Wednesday Whiteboard Quote - March 4

"We spend a lot of time looking for happiness when the world right around us is full of wonder. To be alive and walk on the earth is a miracle, and yet most of us are running as if there were some better place to get to. There is beauty calling to us every day, every hour, but we are rarely in a position to listen." Silence p. 3

This past weekend, I attended an Association retreat in the mountains of Asheville, North Carolina. After driving through arduous traffic, the last few miles of which included winding up and around (and up some more) a narrow mountain road, I finally arrived at our "rustic" bed and breakfast. As I turned off the ignition and opened the door, something immediately hit me. It wasn't something unfamiliar so much as something often forgotten and nearly impossible to hear in an urban city of over 6 million people. Silence.

We avoid silence like the plague. Our radios are constantly on while driving, TVs blaring at home, TVs in restaurants, music in elevators, the sound of videos on our phones in the bathroom, watching TV at dinner, AirPods to ensure we can be in noise to not hear the grunts and moans of others at the gym. It’s a noisy world.

It seems we chase that noise because it is usually sufficient, at least momentarily, in drowning out the annoying inner roommate we have called the mind. You know, the part of us that is never ok (at least when it's thinking about I/Me/Mine). The mind constantly notices and lets us know what's wrong, and how we should fix it, and where we should be heading in life, and how we aren't doing enough, and how that family member should be doing this, and how that person talking loudly on the phone in the supermarket line should learn to have some respect for everyone else. Is it a wonder we never feel ok?

Because we haven't learned to be ok with this noise, we go out drinking with our friends, we turn on the TV to get lost in a movie or show, we scroll social media, we give in to that addiction. We do anything to drown out the cacophony of desires/preferences/shoulds/shouldn'ts/if onlys/etc that make life a living hell.

It's not the silence that is uncomfortable, but the mind that constantly fills the silence with noticing whatever is wrong. It's within our ability to build a healthy relationship with the mind through mental fitness, where we learn its tendencies and get to know it. Will this ever leave us in complete bliss and silence for the rest of our days? Nope. But it will provide us the mental strength to find the silence in and around whatever is happening.

The silence, stillness, and calmness are always there, no matter what the mind is saying. Our task is to listen for, hear, and find it. I look forward to meeting you there.